darn it. i have the flu.
god, why?? TAT
i need to get better by tomorrow. aside from school, i have to go to my cousin’s birthday party.
mkay. i’m at it again.. the “there-are-more-important-things-than-myself” attitude.
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i’ve been listening to panic at the disco a lot lately. why? i dunno. lol.
kay. i’m spamming my own blog. hahahaha.
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maybe i’m addicted to paracetamol na.
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i don’t know how i’m gonna make it on monday.. kasi nman bat pa ginawang monday yung program. gusto ko manood. T-T
i woke up this morning with my body sore all over. i ignored this as soon as i got downstairs. so i went with the usual. while on my way to school, i felt that the pain didn’t go away at all. my head was throbbing the whole time. i never made it halfway of my social science class. my friends realized that i was sick and wanted me to go to the clinic immediately.
but i don’t want to go to the clinic. because i just knew that i’m not gonna receive proper attention there. i might as well hit my head with a rock. the physician said i din’t have fever at all and i have this impression that she’s thinking i’m just faking. well screw her. she just gave me some paracetamol. then she said i could go back to class. i said i wanted to rest. she reluctantly agreed and told me that i wouldn’t get an excuse slip because i don’t have fever. i don’t care, i just wanted to lie down for christ’s sake.
i slept. amidst their annoying noises. then i heard my classmate’s voice. he came up to my bed and told me that the block was on their way to the auditorium for an announcement. i decided to get up and go with them.
all went well right after that. i was still feeling sick, but i ignored it and tried to laugh with my friends.
the trip home went pleasnatly well. but when i reached home i felt like i could break down any moment. i hurried upstairs and changed then fell on my parent’s bed. my by body was sore again.
Under the sun we used to play
Under the stars, awestruck, we lay
The smell of blossoms bathed the air
Now stench fills my lungs that I can’t bear
I knock softly at the peeling door
Although, knowingly, there’s not someone who’d answer
There’s not someone for whom I’m there
So I turn the sad cold knob with a shudder
The hall is all dark and unhappy
If possible, colder than it already is outside
With a glance memories pour, emotions unbind
Knees weak I take a step further..
Up the steps one, two, three
The old battered stairs sing creaks
My legs feel heavier, every step I take
I somehow feel my heart will break
Entering this old room I knew so well
I remember how sunlight used to dance
But now all that’s left is thick dust
Then I hear mama singing her song again
I look around to see nothing
It was nothing but nothing at all
They’ve all gone into none being
Away from me, away from everything
I went home to find tears
Instead of love that I lost long since
The thought dawned, how horrible it was
I went home but I’m not
I can touch old blankets, the sodden earth
I can touch this useless pile of cement
But there just isn’t love ablaze anymore
On its tiled linoleum hearth.
click : /*deviation*/
completely forgot that today was my physical exam for plm.. i woke up with my mother standing at our room door yelling at me to wake up. it went like: "Kanina pa kita ginigising, hindi ka pa nag-aalmusal. 10 ang schedule mo, anong oras na.."
I woke up but still had my eyes half closed.. Even while going down stairs.. Then i blindly walked to he bathroom.. Then my mother started yelling at me again "Bilisan mo nga maligo- blah blah blah".
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At plm i’m about to get done with everything then the nurse asked me to step into the last room. The nurse asked me to sign my name together with some other details then he pointed at a chair. I sat down then i saw a box of syringes, a jar of cotton balls and a rather large bottle of alcohol. I didn’t know they did vaccine shots too..
When i went out, my mother saw the cotton ball i was holding. She asked me what kind of shots they gave me. I honestly had no idea. Then she said i should have asked just to know. Then i told her not to worry unless i drop dead on the street while we head home..
finally she asked what it was, they told her it was "RMM". oh great now i know what it’s CALLED.
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I hate summer. Lots of people my age love it though… All because school’s out. I LOVE school, but not the school work, there’s a broad line between the two.. Come on, i’d trade serious sweating with school any day. I have to take 3 baths everyday just so i could keep on living.
I’m not saying i have nothing to look forward to this summer.. But right now i feel bored.. I have a fair amount of expectations on what I’ll be doing this summer, but I’m still not sure about everything (I might get shot this very moment, you get what i mean). I might even go to the mall later if i’m not feeling too lazy (chances are small).
At this time, I have something to keep me busy. I draw. I draw, get tired, talk to people on messenger, decide to draw again, ink a few lines, get tired again, log on to friendster, close open canvas, learn css… and everything else that comes after that. I’m practicing drawing. hehe. I might even do it for a living. Not for my entire life though, just for summer. I have other ambitions you know (maybe not). I’ve been joining contests, and i already submitted my work to my club. I’m not expecting to win. I just want to experience it.
THAT’S ALL. *sigh
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HONO BO YON. 
BOO!!
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nice blog : )
ahhhhh!!!!! where am i?!?!?!?! *panics*
Oh great.. walang nag-uupate ng blog. Hahaha.
May convention some time in April. Gusto niyo bang pumunta at pupunta ba kayo? Sa Megamall ulit. Tell me if you’re planning to go. 
=)
random person rin ako.=D
O?
Hoy.
yes, i know… lol
yes, you are…
